Glimmers of Light

Beginning week 3!

 

I have had a rough weekend and it's hard staying home and not being around people! I miss my church! But I have my Jesus!

I am starting to experience burning when I swallow. This will only get worse before it gets better! Time to take on the arsenal of meds!

All that said, I am beginning to see the light peeking through the end of the tunnel. Still have the hardest part to go, but I have no doubt the Lord will see me through! I will get there!

I had some questions answered last week which I have been putting off asking. So now I can be at peace with those!

My God is on the throne, He is in control, and I will continue to put my trust in Him!

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find you in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand.
 

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me.
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my savior.
I will call upon your name
Keep my eyes above the waves

My soul will rest in your embrace

I am Yours and You are mine!

Faith, Fighting & Fatique

Well I have completed 2 weeks of chemo and radiation! I am fast approaching the half way mark! I am pretty fatigued and starting to lose my appetite again. I am also feeling some burning in my esophagus when I eat or drink.

I am going to be laying low for the next few weeks. I want to stay away from germs and to be honest not really up to a lot of company. I go up daily to Ohio State for treatment and by the time I get home I pretty much go to bed. Not too much to my life right now but surviving!

Please continue to pray because that is what sustains me! April 22 is my final radiation treatment so pray me to that day! It is not an easy road! I sometimes want to just crawl into my bed and go to sleep for awhile! But I have to fight! Please continue to fight with me! I won't give up and please don't give up on me!

I am reflecting on this coming week of Easter! Most important week for Christians apart from Christmas! Our faith rests on this one moment in time when Jesus bore our sin! He didn't give up and neither will I! I didn't ask for this disease, but I am learning more about my God through it! And myself as well.

A big shout out to Kara Puderbaugh for staying with me and keeping me company while my man was away! Love you girl! It was a good week!

Love,
Gigi

Back In The Battle

Day 1 down and behind me!

My blood counts were up more than expected! Thanks to all you prayer warriors! Weekend trip was a help for sure! My weight is good! I got the green light to go back into battle! I am so ready!

I went to the James for my chemo and was it ever a treat! We watched 2 movies and ate lunch! The staff is super friendly and very accommodating! My chemo nurse is going to be the same every time! So we will become good friends! She was very helpful!

So I got my BFF's back and their names are, 5-Fluorouacil and Oxaliplatin. While they may be my best buds, trust me, you don't want to be introduced to them. They are the kind of friends that if you have to know them, they are the best, but you really don't want to have to cross paths with them! Just saying.

Here is a pic of my radiation room:

Is it not the coolest? I did have a couple of back spasms because you lay on a flat table and they line you up perfectly with the beams. God got me through. You don't even know you are being radiated! It's over before you know it!

I saw a couple of books talking about cancer and info on treatment and prevention, you know what, I don't want to read any of that right now. Just want to count down the days and get through it! I may think on those things later.

I have decided that I will keep two of my wrist bands I get every time I go. It has my name, birthdate and medical number. I will keep the first, and the last.

Today I saw Marla my nurse that does my blood draw and accesses my port! I love her! She loves Jesus! She is a special part of this journey for me!

And so it begins! Thanks for the continuing support!

Love,
Gigi

On Hold

I have had a setback. Because of my white blood count being too low, my treatment is pushed back a week. I am going to rest and  do my best to recoup!

 

Please pray my count will come back up!

Preparing

As this week comes to an end, I have completed my tests, I have been marked and ran through the dry run for radiation. I received the most promising news about how the tumor has responded to the chemo! My doctor told me that I have made the best possible choice in treatment I could have made, had I gone with the standard treatment, I would have been on the other chemo drug. I think God had a hand in that!

Next week starts the real line of attack! I believe I am ready and prepared! I will put my game face on, my warrior headdress, and the determination of an overcomer! Because that is why I am! God has told me so!

In the mean time I will enjoy the next few days with family and friends!
Appreciating life and living! Jen and I had a special day together. We went to a German restaurant and fudge house -- we came home with some sweets! So I will close with a fun pic of our day!

 

 

Love,

Gigi

It's Hard To Be Still When You're Doing The Happy Dance

What can I say, this day has been absolutely mind blowing at the least! Why? Because I have a God who likes to blow our minds! He can do exceedingly above and beyond what we ask or think! If you have any doubt about that, we need to talk!

Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so, yes Jesus loves me! I am thankful for my results! I am thankful for the people He has surrounded me with who are loving on me through this journey! I am thankful for the awesome medical team He lead me to. I pray God will bless them beyond measure!

Here is something The Lord is teaching me in this! BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD! in the crazy busy life we live He wants to lead us in the way We should go. But we need to stop and listen to Him. The Lord will speak to us but will we hear Him when He does? I can tell you this is one girl who will be still a little more!

Love,
Gigi

results

 

70 %!!!

 

 

PRAISE GOD!!!!

 



Laying Low

I know I have been a little quiet on here lately, which is unusual for me lol. I have been just trying to live normally, trying to get plenty of rest, taking in hockey games with my grandson and babysitting the little ones a little. Just enjoying life.

I feel pretty good right now! Praise God! I am eating very well! I have received some awesome meals! Thank you to all who are feeding us! I am encamped in perfect peace because my mind is set on Christ! Most days I really am not consumed with the cancer. Although the thought of it creeps in. I imagine that it will always be in the recesses of my mind all the days of my life.

This week I will be having my first CAT scan since starting chemo. I meet afterward to find out results and the next treatment plan. Then I will have a dry run for radiation. So it will be a busy week. I am ready!

The next phase will be a little more challenging, so I covet your prayers! My last day of radiation is April 15, and April 17 for chemo.

Each step I have had a certain doctor walking along side me, and when they have gone as far as they can, they pass the baton to the next. There has been one who is walking with me the whole way, that would be the Lord Jesus! He is the one overseeing the journey. The one who my faith and trust is in the most! He is the one who has lead me to this awesome team that is caring for me! As soon as I know results of this victory, I will share as I know God will grow your faith as well! We serve a BIG GOD! He is able! I just want to say that I so appreciate all the love, support, and prayers that everyone is showering me with! I pray that our Father will give you a double portion!

 

 



Love,
Gigi